Marriage........

Is there freedom in your marriage?

Or is there bondage bringing woe

Is there freedom in your marriage?

This is what I'd like to know.


For marriage is two people

Each sharing the others respect

Not telling the other how to live or love

Nor giving each other the shove

For each is an individual

With free-will to be such;

Giving and receiving in their talents -

However much.


Having freedom to enjoy at times

What each may like to do;

Pleasing each other by attitude

Being happy for each too.


Standing by each other

When outsiders shoot the tongue

No matter what the cost might be

For freedom you're among.

So, is there freedom in your marriage?

I pray there is today,

For only in marriage's freedom -

Love will be for aye!

The woman in me.....

My love is so near in my heart
But hes in fact so far
I fear this love is pointless
But, something strong says it's not
Is he really worth fighting or praying for?
Is he really worth praying for?
I'm so confused
I don't want to make the wrong decision


I love him so much
I don't know what to do
He does accept me, but loves me not, I can tell
He's too afraid to say, it's so hard on him I feel
Especially with everything that gets in the way.
It's not as easy as I thought , for many will get hurt
A proposal I have been informed


Differences and struggles leaving all tragic past behind
Starting anew is no easy task
Especially after the pause ;long it is
A new life means happiness they say
Still cant visualize,knowing a turn I must take
The heartaches of my past still haunt me
Confiscating my new rainbow of hope
Amnesia is thought an illness, I so wish I had

Must leave my past and move on anew
A man in my life will give reason to live
For what is a woman without a man?
Love?Who said anything about such/
Respect and appreciation come first
As before fallen, broken and in despair all watched
The game of love is over
And a new era for me in the making

I pray I be once more a happy soul
For my dues to tragedy I paid in full
To be completed by a partner is no choice
For completed I am and he the addition
He’s the whipped cream on my dessert
Is how I will see things
How I wish my parents could see me now
Marrying for convenience and not for love
Foremost they’d wish me well
Though a loveless marriage was never their plan


We cant play God for the job too divine
As destiny and fate become entwined
The gent is a good man,so they say
A handicap we both share
Never would I believe marry not for love
He a Christian and I ,a born Muslim
Convert he agreed , a widow he is, childless too
A pair made in heaven
One never knows

Will he be my passionate storm
Electrifying , my body from its deep sleep with every single touch
Or will my burning lust all go to waste?
Lust is not all so they say
For life holds many hopes
The gentleman in waiting
A response I have I have returned
In that love has no deal
For a unity with respect we will share
And living alone will no longer be an ordeal

The mother in me.....

The mother in me
Happy and grateful of having had the perfect mum
But sad at the same time
For no one will say as well for me
Nor call me by natures name
Yes, childless I am
Lucky all say I am ;though I believe not


The mother in me
Is atrocious at times
To a point of insanity
Maybe that being why
I have come to remain childless
Overprotective and controlling
I may have become
From fear of losing something so precious and divine

The mother in me
A child is a bond between two loved ones
Which will unite them to eternity
Even if should they chose to part
An added contribution of love it is
For think they not when the nest is open
And fly away it may seem
As they will be back with offspring
Ecstatic their mum will be


The mother in me
How , Oh how I wish someone would
Call me mummy,mama,or mother
Natures name in the making
Not because a childless woman gives off
An incomplete nature to all observers
As the craving to mothering is strong and strenuous
And pretense is easily seen

The mother in me
Tried all I could
But to no avail
To hear little footsteps
Running and giggling away
Dreams and wishes are just that
But reality is a different showcase
Which I have to face and hopefully accept



I love this quote from Khalil Gibran

"Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself
They come through you but not from you
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit,
not even in your dreams."

To all mothers I wish a Blessed Happy Mother's Day,and to myself and other childless souls I hope the best is yet to come !

A dilemma.....

What do you do when you love someone
who doesn't love you back
it's when you begin to love someone else
that their feelings begin to react

now you love 2 people
there's a dilemma you have to face
and you know the first one you ever loved
could not ever be replaced

but you know that you could never go back to the way things used to be
when all you saw was darkness
and the light you could not see
because it was too cloudy

or because the sky wasn't clear
or because the mountains in your mind
made it harder for you to hear
remember there's two people

and you can't make up your mind
bring the present forward
and put the past behind
the only thing that matters

is what your going through
thinking about the dilemma
and what you're supposed to do
what do you do when you cry at night

and there's nothing to calm your fears
and you know that this dilemma
is the causing of your tears

My Passionate Storm

Like the ocean so wide and powerful with its waves rolling in and crashing against
The rocks

With the same force as my admiration towards the man I want to get to know
I want to know and feel his strength,and feel the power of his touch,crashing against
My soul

I want to feel his passions his desires and the dreams he has
Like the waters that go on
Forever and ever

I want to feel his tender touch caressing every inch of my body like the kiss of the sun over the ocean horizon,
Faithfully each morning

I want him to know that with each and ever word spoken is like a ripple that spreads throughout the deepest waters in My heart
For the day is coming closer and the nights are getting longer in the desire
To be near you

I dream of that moment when the waters of the ocean and the rocks of the cliffs finally meet
In a storm of passion,

His every touch will be like a soft caress to the rocks of the cliffs below
With each encounter will be like the waters stirring under the ocean so deep
With each kiss will be like a storm building furiously down beneath the earth
And deep down beneath my soul

And when the time comes for him to take my heart my soul and my body and make love to me
It will be like a wild storm out of control
With each touch, caress, and kiss he bestows upon me, will be like
Giant waves

Crashing vigorously with so much power and so much strength against the rocks,
Just like nature intended it to be
And just like I want him to completely take me


Then like the calm after the storm
I want to lie in his arms and hear
The pounding of his heart

Like the ocean waves
Calming and soothing
To my Soul.

To my mummy....

For, until I depart, I will always remember you, my dear mummy.

Woke up this morning
Dragged myself to the kitchen
Poured a lukewarm cup of coffee
And slumped my shoulders over it.

Lost myself in my thoughts:
The chances I had taken,
The dreams never realized,
All the times I was mistaken.

As tears warm up my coffee
Wrapped in self-pity I wonder:
My broken marriage,
The wasted time,

The wrong paths.
I miss my mummy
Whom I'll never have again.

How sad it is that I no longer feel your touch.

No longer will I feel the warmth of your hugs.
Your kisses placed gently upon my cheek.
Your hands caressing my hair.

Oh, for so many years I have wept.

If only once I could call you and hear your reply.
You are my reminder that life should never be taken for granted.
You are my reminder that above all else life should be cherished.
Your love will always be eternal.

ALONE

Alone to cry
Alone to smile
Alone to die
And all the while

I'm Alone to wander
And Alone to live
Alone to ponder
What should have been

Alone to discover
A world full of pain
Childless with no siblings,father or mother
To chase away

The fears that i dream
of things that i should not say
But I'm Alone with my dreams
Alone each and every day

Alone to live
Alone to learn
Alone in joy
Alone in hurt

Alone in morning
Afternoon and the night
Alone without knowing
Alone in life

Alone I was born
And alone I will die
Alone walking through life
Alone Without pride

How are you satisfied
Living life like you do
When you know there is some one out there
Who could use a friend like you

No one will know how I live
No one will know who I am
No one will know how i felt
No one will ever give a damn

It’s no fun to be alone
To do everything on your own
To live with no recognition

No one to share my pride with
Wanting to have someone
To live my life with

But for now...

I will continue alone

And all alone...

I am always alone.