To my mummy....

For, until I depart, I will always remember you, my dear mummy.

Woke up this morning
Dragged myself to the kitchen
Poured a lukewarm cup of coffee
And slumped my shoulders over it.

Lost myself in my thoughts:
The chances I had taken,
The dreams never realized,
All the times I was mistaken.

As tears warm up my coffee
Wrapped in self-pity I wonder:
My broken marriage,
The wasted time,

The wrong paths.
I miss my mummy
Whom I'll never have again.

How sad it is that I no longer feel your touch.

No longer will I feel the warmth of your hugs.
Your kisses placed gently upon my cheek.
Your hands caressing my hair.

Oh, for so many years I have wept.

If only once I could call you and hear your reply.
You are my reminder that life should never be taken for granted.
You are my reminder that above all else life should be cherished.
Your love will always be eternal.

ALONE

Alone to cry
Alone to smile
Alone to die
And all the while

I'm Alone to wander
And Alone to live
Alone to ponder
What should have been

Alone to discover
A world full of pain
Childless with no siblings,father or mother
To chase away

The fears that i dream
of things that i should not say
But I'm Alone with my dreams
Alone each and every day

Alone to live
Alone to learn
Alone in joy
Alone in hurt

Alone in morning
Afternoon and the night
Alone without knowing
Alone in life

Alone I was born
And alone I will die
Alone walking through life
Alone Without pride

How are you satisfied
Living life like you do
When you know there is some one out there
Who could use a friend like you

No one will know how I live
No one will know who I am
No one will know how i felt
No one will ever give a damn

It’s no fun to be alone
To do everything on your own
To live with no recognition

No one to share my pride with
Wanting to have someone
To live my life with

But for now...

I will continue alone

And all alone...

I am always alone.