The mother in me.....

The mother in me
Happy and grateful of having had the perfect mum
But sad at the same time
For no one will say as well for me
Nor call me by natures name
Yes, childless I am
Lucky all say I am ;though I believe not


The mother in me
Is atrocious at times
To a point of insanity
Maybe that being why
I have come to remain childless
Overprotective and controlling
I may have become
From fear of losing something so precious and divine

The mother in me
A child is a bond between two loved ones
Which will unite them to eternity
Even if should they chose to part
An added contribution of love it is
For think they not when the nest is open
And fly away it may seem
As they will be back with offspring
Ecstatic their mum will be


The mother in me
How , Oh how I wish someone would
Call me mummy,mama,or mother
Natures name in the making
Not because a childless woman gives off
An incomplete nature to all observers
As the craving to mothering is strong and strenuous
And pretense is easily seen

The mother in me
Tried all I could
But to no avail
To hear little footsteps
Running and giggling away
Dreams and wishes are just that
But reality is a different showcase
Which I have to face and hopefully accept



I love this quote from Khalil Gibran

"Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself
They come through you but not from you
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit,
not even in your dreams."

To all mothers I wish a Blessed Happy Mother's Day,and to myself and other childless souls I hope the best is yet to come !

ALONE

Alone to cry
Alone to smile
Alone to die
And all the while

I'm Alone to wander
And Alone to live
Alone to ponder
What should have been

Alone to discover
A world full of pain
Childless with no siblings,father or mother
To chase away

The fears that i dream
of things that i should not say
But I'm Alone with my dreams
Alone each and every day

Alone to live
Alone to learn
Alone in joy
Alone in hurt

Alone in morning
Afternoon and the night
Alone without knowing
Alone in life

Alone I was born
And alone I will die
Alone walking through life
Alone Without pride

How are you satisfied
Living life like you do
When you know there is some one out there
Who could use a friend like you

No one will know how I live
No one will know who I am
No one will know how i felt
No one will ever give a damn

It’s no fun to be alone
To do everything on your own
To live with no recognition

No one to share my pride with
Wanting to have someone
To live my life with

But for now...

I will continue alone

And all alone...

I am always alone.