But my love die ,it wont.....

My love is stronger that you can bear to believe
Peaceful that can’t hear nor utter
Soft and innocent as a baby buns
Light as a feather
And clear as the sky
To you I gave you all my love
One sweet summer that still I cherish and it lingers
But the past is past they all say
To which I ponder ; for never have I had such a connection
A thrill in itself ; but my love die it wont



You my love belong to another
Respect that I will abide
For the unity of family does come first
As I am no breaker but a unifier
What I have stated is bold and simple
Even the lashes of your tongue so swift and harsh
To which I ponder ,
For never have I had such a connection , a thrill in itself
So swift and hurtful did you act; but my love die it wont



To show your heroine the macho in you
For you are only a man
Ah yes but a gentleman at that or so I thought
Tis it he I fell for and not the jerk you came to be
Now I have shared my peace of mind
Yet linger to what might have been and not
Sitting in the shade of this beautiful paradise
I rethink my story and wish you well; but my love die it wont



Have fallen many a times
But never as strong as this resulting in sorrow and pain
A huge burden and a heart torn to pieces
I am not sorry for what I did
You both thank me you will one day
Leaving you while knowing you loved me still
Yet hatred set in and a change in you never before seen
Is this the real you ?
The man I so touchily loved and adored
I couldnt absorb the hatred so challenging in you
But speak I the words of regret not;but my love die it wont t



When love is not conquered what remains is a lost soul
A mind and a decapitated body
All gone with the love of one man
To you my love I wish you well,from all my heart
To myself the act must move on
Life is short with all its horrors
And live it we must without any sorrow; but my love die it wont

To my dear friend/husband Yusef

I miss you like the desert misses the rain
Sounds like a tune
But my feelings remain untouched
Though you had my body
Still was I lost in love

Wondering what my life would’ve been
A different path chosen
Stability they call it
Tender tis not on the loveless heart

For I am a wild one
In need of a wilder still
My storm is surfing
Fear of remaining alone
A choice was made which I still regret
Under pressure never results


Fear I no longer have
As life has taught me well
To digest each day as is given
Then to bang you till you seek adjust
Family they say is what is in need
Hush yay please for I was not present
In the making of relatives
And have to bear them and pretense be made

But you my dear husband I so told before
of other flowers in my play yard
Did you not notice how blooming was i
A forever sun ray and rainbow
I give great thanks to your sincerity and pretense
In heavens name to figure me out all in vain

For a jerk I have turned out to be
Sorry and regret eat at me day in and out
As times passes I do become more fearless
Have hurt the best of friends
Who put up with me till the end
Sacrificed all good intentions
Denied by the jerk in me
Broken friendships and family all gone
Whining I may sound to be for all is broken
Alone with the guilt I must live


I am better now and less a danger to myself
Need more time to me than words can utter
Travel I must and see the world
A guide I wont need for my prayers will suffice
As my spirit reloads on a hopeful happiness
That was and will be
For not a care in the world have I.....

my need of you......

I want you in my life
so much more then anyone else
I want us to be together
together forever
I want to be loved
for who I am not for who you want me to be
I want your love
no one else's
I want to feel your touch
soft in gentle like no other

I want to read your lips when you say
you love me more then anything
I want your lips to kiss me
for the very first time
I want to walk with you
hand in hand
I want your arms around me in front of all
so I feel safe in protected
I want you to hold me
just cause you can
I want you to hold me even more
when I cry

I want your arms around my waist
so they know that I’m yours
I want you to be there
when I need you most
I want to be able to trust you
so you keep my secrets deep inside
I want you to love me
for what’s on the inside not the out

I want you to tell the truth
no matter how much it hurts
I want you to say you’re sorry
when you do something wrong
I want to be with you
just you and me

I want your hand to touch my face
to dry up my tears
I want you to hold me
just cause you love me
I don’t want this relationship to ever fail or end
I hope and believe its destiny or nasseb as we say
For I have to be frank as there is no other way.

you and i were meant to be......

To my future husband Yusef:

I cannot change the way I am,
I never really try,
God made me different and unique,
I never ask him why.

If I appear peculiar,
There's nothing I can do,
You must accept me as I am,
As I've accepted you.

God made a casting of each life,
Then threw the mold away,
Each child is different from the rest,
Unlike as night from day.

So often we will criticize,
The things that others do,
But, do you know, they do not think,
The same as me and you.

So God in all his wisdom,
Who knows us all by name,
He didn't want us to be bored,
That's why we're not the same.

You and I were meant to be
God entrusted my fate to thee
You entered my life one sweet day
And the 3rd May , our fate, our pathway

My life has flourished in happiness
My feelings are so boundless
Your life and mine will truly bond
Our bodies and souls will truly bound

We will laugh, play, chat and pray
We will vent, snort, touch, and support
Miles and miles from across the sea
Our minds and souls have no boundary

What if we shared, we lived as one
Our hearts and souls would never famine
Our future sealed for us together
Eternity beckons, each other we treasure

When we live together, it is my dream
Our home will fill with laughter,
Mrs B at uni, teaching and researching
Mr B at work, listening and to the complaining
When we live together, Yusef how would you feel?
Or is my dream one without a seal?
When we live together, our worlds would unite
Minds, bodies and souls together so tight

Minds and dreams are wonderful, they excite
My mind has this dream, to you I write
Tell me, tell me, do you dream the same
When we live together, Mrs B, my new surname?


When we live together, these words will not lose
The true meaning of life, it's without taboo's
When we live together, these words from you
Would complete my life, and they are I DO.

In a timelesss era....

What we thought was love and happiness?

Is now gone all that's left is to move on.

Say goodbye and walk away.

Take your wounded pride put it aside.

The game of love you have lost.


Your broken heart is the cost.

Count your blessings and pray.

Maybe you will win at the game of love one day.

Just learn when to walk away.

You’re strong enough to say good bye.

Don't hold back its okay to cry love hurts sometimes

I want to be a lost poem in a stranger's coat pocket that conveys the importance of you,

To assure you of my desire,

To assure you of my dreams.

I want all the possibilities of you in writing.

I want to give you your reflection.

I want your eyes on me.

I want everything before you to follow us

And leave a trail behind us.

I want never to say good-bye to you,

Even on the street corner nor phone.

I want. . . . . . I want so much

I'm breathless.

I want to bring my power in a poem to burn a hole in your pocket,

So then I could sew it.

I want you to be distant and feel you close.

I want endless days when its day,

And nighttime never to end when its night.

I want all seasons in one day.

I want the sun to set before us,

And come up in front of us.

I want to think you're thoughts,

Because they're mine.

I want only what's urging you.

I want to get in the way of your barriers.

I want you to be tender like you do already.

I want to say we meet for a reason,

And I want that reason to be bigger then us,

And I want it to take over us,

I want to forget,

I want to remember us.

I want your smile always,

And your grimace's too.

I want your scare on my lips,

I want your disappointments in my heart,

I want your strengths in my soul,

And your soul in my eyes.

I want to believe everything you say,

And I do.

I want you to tell me what's best,

When I don't know.

When your lost,

I want to find you and drag you from the darkness.

A new life....

Very quietly I take my leave
As quietly as I came here;
Softly I wave good-bye
To the man of my dreams in the western sky.

For an online love that can never be
A broken family would result
And parent less children
Heartbreaking times simply beyond me

But one sided it was
Sad to have lost to love
Then to have never
Broken like a bird with nowhere to fly

A brand new man has come my way
And with him I will be
Love him not and knows it he
Both out of love but in need

Of each other to cure our past
And life worth living again
Will be as bright
A rainbow to follow we have

Hope is never lost so is said
My man will be only mine
For I cannot share
Though love so true

Will be mine again
Not completing me
From all chosen a husband
Complementing the vow

As I await to be in your arms
And be finally yours for real
Papers needed come to end
And our journey to commence

A true wife and partner
You can count on
You a husband I will embrace
Love you I will with all respect

Very quietly I take my leave
As quietly as I came here;
Gently I wave my hand to the past
Not even a wisp of ever having met will I bring away

Marriage........

Is there freedom in your marriage?

Or is there bondage bringing woe

Is there freedom in your marriage?

This is what I'd like to know.


For marriage is two people

Each sharing the others respect

Not telling the other how to live or love

Nor giving each other the shove

For each is an individual

With free-will to be such;

Giving and receiving in their talents -

However much.


Having freedom to enjoy at times

What each may like to do;

Pleasing each other by attitude

Being happy for each too.


Standing by each other

When outsiders shoot the tongue

No matter what the cost might be

For freedom you're among.

So, is there freedom in your marriage?

I pray there is today,

For only in marriage's freedom -

Love will be for aye!